“My mind was consumed with negative thoughts about what my future could bring and not seeing my babies grow up.”

– Laura, pictured with her boys.


She and her husband had two little boys who weren’t even at school yet. Laura had both her breasts removed and chemotherapy treatment.

“I panicked when I first felt the lump, but I convinced myself I was too young for it to be anything sinister. 

Hours after my diagnosis, I was numb. I couldn’t eat, cry, sleep or even talk. As the days went on I felt a huge range of emotions. Fear was a big one. And sadness.

There were so many questions. Why me? How was I going to tell my kids? My mind was consumed with thoughts about what my future would bring and not seeing my babies grow up.

To me the ‘c’ word meant a death sentence and something I didn’t want to think about.

But the reality was my cancer was very aggressive. I chose to have a bilateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction. Surgery was tough. I had to spend excruciating hours in nuclear medicine, having radioactive dye injected into my breasts so they could find my lymph nodes and test whether the cancer had spread.

Following my surgery I had a high risk of infection and was isolated from everyone for five weeks. Not always being able to see my kids and cuddle them every day was heart-breaking.

Then, on top of everything, I contracted neutropenia while I was going through chemotherapy. It’s a condition that reduces the number of white blood cells in your body, which makes it harder for your immune system to fight off infections. Everyone had to wear masks around me. It was very confronting and I felt so alone.

It sounds silly, but I sometimes felt that my emotions would be a burden on others.

When I felt like being sad, I would stop myself because everyone thought I was so strong and I didn’t want to let them down.

So I would make jokes at my own expense and then cry in the bathroom where no one could see me. I still do this at times.

People see the happy, easy-going Laura that they know and love. But there will always be an inner turmoil that will never go away.

I will never just be able to get on with life as normal. I have to find a new normal.

The treatment I had put me into early mesopause. I get hot flushes, have gained weight, and I will never be able to have another child.

But my surgeon is confident and so is my oncologist that the cancer is gone. And I am too of course.

I feel incredibly lucky and grateful to be here.

I’ve learned to see all the little things in my life with a new appreciation because I’m still here to do them.

Being alive is no longer a given. It’s a privilege, and one that I will never take for granted.

Will you help save more lives like mine? Please give generously to fund vital breast cancer trials.” 



Breast cancer is the most commonly diagnosed cancer in the world, with over 20,000 Australian’s estimated to be diagnosed this year alone. Every one of them deserves the treatment that will save their life and give them back the futures they had planned.

Breast Cancer Trials is a unique collaboration of researchers, trial participants and YOU, our valued supporters working together to protect and save lives.

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